Ok.. I'm seriously an unhappy wuff.. I'll even go so far as saying I'm livid and want to eat people's faces.

Proposition to repeal the same sex marriage in Maine Passes. Srsly.. WTF
C'mon Maine, your better than that.. I know you are, I lived inside you for 19 out of 23 years of my life.

I want answers.. and dead bodies. Old christian dead bodies are bonus points.


My only guess is it was northern Maine which is all farmlands and forests, the southern part of the state doesn't seem like it would vote that way. Unless its all of the old generation living down there. In that case they need to hurry up and die so the US can be a better place.

*sings along* ^_^

Vacation time :D

I'll be driving from Raleigh, NC to Bangor, ME with stops along the way in VA, NJ and MA..
Anyone else I should be visiting on the way up? :p

create your own personalized map of the USA
or write about it on the open travel guide


Hmmm... it seems that I haven't touched hardly ANY of the middle of the US.. I mean, what's out there to see? ;P

uhhh... wtf?

Whos going to FWA and AC this year? :3

"This is Quahog Brian, same year same time but in this universe Christianity never existed. Which means the dark ages of scientific repression never occurred and thus humanity is a thousand years more advanced"

It's like one of the songs that describes me

Heh, Awesome :P

"Reason one, it's just not natural.. and if your a real American it means you reject anything unnatural like polyester, glasses and air conditioning"

http://www.weebls-stuff.com/toons/Amazing+Horse/

<3!

Ok so I know I don't exactly talk much.. or let anyone know whats "really" going on with me but I figured I would put down what I was thinking just because.. I apologize about the length but I mean, This may be the one and only time I really pour myself out like this :<

I started working at Wendy's right out of high school, I drove an hour from my parents house in the middle of backwoods nowhere, Maine to Orono to work for 6.25. I'd been having severe issues with depression and loneliness and back in 05 I wasn't aware of *any* other furs in the state so I decided to move out to find others like me. I chose VA beach because that's where my boyfriend Hayden at the time lived. So after much disagreement from my mom after 6 months I still packed up what I could in the car and just started driving, I got there in Aug 06 and spent time with him. I was happy, Hayden also was the person that introduced me to the Goo Goo Dolls.

I met DJ Genki and moved in with him then proceeded to look for work, I found it under a week at, you guessed it, Wendy's Crew member, 7.00. Life was doing fine, I was moderately happy.. I had a decent place to live, a job, a car, a boyfriend and a good friend to spend time with every day. Well that was all well and good until hydra moved in, started turning genki against me and tranceraccoon and managed to get us both evicted leaving me with only a 1 hours notice of getting out. That was probably one of the worst experiences i've ever had.. but I used a credit card to secure a hotel for a week and put the rest of my stuff in storage (Which I actually ended up paying $60 a month for a bit over 2 years. In hind sight it wasn't really worth it.. I don't know why I waited that long.)

Well, I didn't want to admit I wasn't capable of living out of my parents house after leaving and being independent so I took the first offer I was given which came from Zerodog in Huntsville, AL. Arrived Jan 07 and lived off credit cards to pay for rent, food and such since I was employed with a small computer company. I kept hoping the job would get better and give me more than like 5 hours a week but I was foolish and lived off my card for 8 months. (Who gives an 18 year old a card with a $500 limit, then after 6 months of steady payments say "Hey, your credit limit is $5,000 now" They didn't even notify me they did it, I just say the available credit limit on the next balance.)
So I ended up maxing that one out as was going to look for a serious job when I remembered that I had received a Bank of America card for $3,000 about the same time the other one got raised so I opened that account and continued to live off it. Stupid.

Eventually.. I realized it was just NOT going to get better and gave in to Wendy's but by that time I had dug myself so deep I'm still roughly where I was 2 years ago. I walked in, passed the app to the GM and got hired on the spot since it was a franchise store. For 6 months this tomboy harassed me, called me names, threw things at me until one day i snapped and threw a pan at her at which point she grabbed me by the shirt and started throwing punches, I protected myself by curling up on the floor (I never really was much of a fighter, I'd like to think I've improved but there's never been any cause for it since) Well, I brought in my torn shirt.. and i got the bitch fired! :D (I couldn't complain to the shift manager cause they were related, and there weren't any cameras so there was no proof it was actually going on until I got my shirt torn up. I actually still have that shirt somewhere)

Shortly afterward, I was the errand runner for the GM (getting coffee from the Starbucks, etc..) and got promoted to Shift manager. Went from 7.25 - 7.45 - 7.55 - 8.00 and I would have gotten promoted to assistant if I had stayed put but my living conditions just kept getting worse, relationships got strained and ended up moving into another furs house.. this house had dust, mold, mildew, animal waste and cockroaches EVERYWHERE even during the day, after moving in I became sick and stayed sick for the 6 months I lived there oddly feeling better only when i was at work. I probably would have stayed in Huntsville long enough to be an ASM if it wasn't destroying my health. I met Frankenson through my time at Fantasy Escape on Second Life and took him up on his offer so I could escape so again.. I packed up all my stuff I could and drove to Raleigh, NC and arrived Jan 09. I don't really think I've made any friends in the Triangle area or if I have I'm not sure where I stand, I haven't exactly hung out with any of the locals since like march. I went and applied everywhere and got hired to a little bakery inside RDU airport and then hired to Wendy's like 2 weeks later after an interview with the GM, DM and HR. I juggled both jobs for about a month or two until there were schedule discrepancies and I ended up missing work at RDU so they terminated me under reason "quit" so I've been working at Wendy's for 8.15, medical insurance, sick days, paid vacation and free meals and picking up whatever I can on the side for computer work.

I ran into a few problems with the roommate and considered moving out but managed to patch things up enough to get by. I don't think he really cares about it anymore cause he seems cool with everything but after something like that happens it's hard for me to trust again and get back to what once was. Anyways, in retrospect.. I really should have stayed true to my first plan on moving to Boston and not just taking the first option given to me.. apparently I didn't learn from my mistake of doing that the first time in moving to Alabama.

I came to an agreement with Capital one, HSBC and Bank of America recently.. I can send $400 to HSBC to settle, $500 to Capital one and I can use the card again and 6 payments of $300 to BoA to settle. That still leaves the Citibank card for $5,600 to deal with and my car payment but at least it's a start.

I've been thinking a lot lately about where my life is going, what I should be doing and what I've done. I'm still making roughly minimum wage for a kinda crap job that I'm not entirely sure I really care about anymore. I'm not exactly passionate about it and due to some mistakes probably won't get promoted to ASM if I stay at this store. I could always move, Again, and start over again but that's something I *Really* don't want to do.. I've already done it 4 times before.
Maine, Virginia, Alabama, North Carolina

I'm also really thinking about moving to Portland, Me; Manchester, NH; Outer suburbs of Boston, Ma for a couple of reasons.. Not so much looking for a job, but looking for other furs I know that will actually come around and hang out with me and give me some company And due to the fact that my mom knows I'm a gay furry and STILL wants me to move home, I know I'm lucky to have supportive parents like that, they accept me and say as long as it makes me happy to do it and to still want me to come home. I simply can't ignore that, I really should be within driving distance of my parents but also within distance of my current lifestyle which doesn't exist where they are.

Sooo... this is all contributing to what I think would improve my quality of life. Being close to family, having friends to spend time with, maybe finding a cute fox to date and a halfway decent job.. or at least a crap job that allows me to have as much overtime as i want/need.
None of this is where I am right now, that needs to change. I don't exactly know when I'll be financially stable enough to pull it off, move and start all over again somewhere new cause NC isn't working for me.. I've fallen into the same old problem I faced in AL and it sucks.
I'm hoping i'll be able to do this by February when taxes come back, maybe wait until march after FWA so I can still drive to it.

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[ ] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[ ] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[ ] tried drugs

TOTAL SO FAR: 7

[x] taken painkillers
[ ] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[ ] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die

TOTAL SO FAR: 14

[ ] missed curfew (Does not apply, never had one)
[x] stayed out all night
[ ] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[ ] been to a therapist
[x] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[ ] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar

TOTAL SO FAR: 19

[x] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[ ] sniffed anything
[ ] wore black nail polish
[ ] wore arm bands
[ ] wore t-shirts with band names
[ ] listened to rap
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 21


[ ] dressed gothic
[ ] dressed girly
[ ] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[ ] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[ ] had a crush on a neighbour

TOTAL SO FAR: 23

[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[x] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[ ] installed speakers in a car
[ ] broken a mirror
[ ] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 28

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[ ] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[ ] gone to court
[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[ ] lied about your age

TOTAL SO FAR: 33

[ ] owned/rented an apartment/house
[x] broke the law in the police's presence (Accidentally broke a traffic law infront of one)
[x] made out with someone who had a BF (in all fairness.. the BF was part of it)
[ ] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[ ] hugged a stranger
[ ] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL SO FAR: 39

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[ ] been called a bad influence
[ ] drank and drove
[ ] prank-called someone
[ ] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[ ] cheated on a test
TOTAL: 44

Smart dog :)

Don't let another proposition 8 happen!
http://www.hrc.org/your_community/12569.htm